Introducing myself

Hello. My name is Courtney. I love to write so I figured why not let everyone into my thoughts and publish a blog. I am 27 years old, married to the love of my life for 15 months now, a stay at home mother to 2 sons, and an Angel mother to 1 son. I am an Army wife and we are currently stationed in Fort Drum, NY. I won't be moving there with the kids until April 18th. Actually looking forward to moving.

A little about my children:

Camryn is my wild child. He will be 5 in September. He was my first true love! Camryn is smart, funny, and a dirty sponge! He is my lanky boy! I don't think his body knows how to gain weight (he could pass that gene onto me if he wants to be nice. I did teach him how to share!) He enjoys harassing his mother and irritating his father! He is an awesome big brother and keeps telling me that he wants a little sister (I think it's due more to the fact that he likes playing with dolls! Oh, well. I love him regardless!)

Logan is my Angel! He is actually my inspiration for this blog. Logan and Camryn are twins. He was sick from about 2 months until the day he joined all his angel friends in Heaven on 1/12/05. He was 4 months 5 days and 12 minutes old. Logan passed away from the flu and pneumonia. He was too young for the flu shot, but I will always blame the hospital for his death. If they had listened to me when I had him at the ER 2 nights before he died, I truly believe that he would be alive today bugging me just as much, if not more, than Camryn does! After Logan passed I went through somewhat of a "funk". I don't consider it a depression. Most days I was able to semi-function. Just enough to keep Camryn well and happy. More about him in my next post. I just want to introduce myself right now. If you want to learn more just visit Logan's webpage... http://loganmyangel.tripod.com/loganshomepage/

Holdyn is my baby! At least for the moment. We do plan on having at least one more soon. Holdyn is 16 weeks and a porker. He is my husband's first biological child, although he treats Camryn no different. Holdyn is a great baby and most of the time will allow me to sleep through the night.

One last thing...Camryn and Logan were born via C-Section due to Camryn being breech. After Logan passed I started doing a ton of research on lung illnesses and a few sites I visited had mentioned that many of babies born this way tend to have respiratory problems. I was bound and determined to birth my next child naturally. Just to mention...I DID!! Holdyn was my empowering VBAC. The boy has never had lung issues (yet he does have Rotovirus as I write! Vomiting and diarrhea galore. The whole damn family has it. At least Holdyn knows how to share.)

HA! I forgot my husband, Shawn. We have been happily married for 15 months, yet we have known each other for 7 years this coming July. We were best friends for 5 of those years before we even started dating. He is not the biological father of Camryn and Logan, but has been in Camryn's life for 2 and 1/2 years now. Shawn is a sargent in the United States Army. He is a former Marine, having been in for 5 years. Then in January of 2002, (a few months before I met him) he joined the Vermont Air National Guard to be closer to home. After the economy shit the bed, we realized that we needed a guaranteed paycheck to support our growing family, so we decided that he would enlist in Active Duty Army. So far, so good!

My first real post is going to be from the beginning of my "New Normal". We'll start there and see where it leads me!